Chapter I: Harakiri
She walks in a trance, a mere collection of broken pieces, held together by an overpowering, all-consuming darkness. Her smile is fake, her eyes are blank, her heart is maimed, her brain is dead. She used be different, the contrary, and now she cannot remember why, or how – her memory is handicapped. The ghosts of her past floating in her eyes, demented, disoriented, she walks, she is in a trance..
She is drowning, falling into the abyss, and there is nothing that can stop her fall. She is out of breath, suffocated, she knows she is going to die, soon. The weight all over her body is unbearable, and yet, she is weightless. Water has such a weird temperament – it drowns the one who is struggling to survive, and floats the one who’s already dead…
Darkness closes in on her. It is all that is around her, confining her to her own wretchedness. Her lips are parched, and her eyes are wet. She prays, desperately, between her sobs and hiccups, for the unknown saviour.. She yells, she shouts, she pleads, she begs, more tears fall down, her throat goes dry.. She falls on her knees, with her hands folded and eyes closed, praying for the one Deliverer, her rescuer.. please.. please..
Chapter II: Saisei
How does one describe the light that breaks her trance?
It is like the rays of the sun which break through the clouds and announce the dawn, and a dead man wakes up, sleepily, grudgingly, but definitely..
It is like a small ray peeping out of a slit at the end of the tunnel, which whispers of hope; and the weary pace quickens. Stumbling, falling, and rising again, she runs. The trance is broken, her brain is awake, her eyes are alive – they have seen light..
She can feel the pull, a hand grasping hers, bringing her closer to the surface. A fresh breath enters her body, fills her lungs, she coughs, and sputters, but she breathes in life. The surface, dark and dreary from below, now gleams like a thousand diamonds. She can feel her weight, but the burden is gone..
Knock.. knock, what is that? Something shakes around her.. KNOCK! Is it the ground itself? BAM! With a crash, the walls break, the confines are destroyed, and light floods in – the light of her Saviour, her angel. In this flood, her misery is washed away, her thirst is quenched.
The chaos is over, and the silence is silenced. The music has finally begun..
Chapter III: Wind
For.. For coming..
You know, if you wanted me to come, you shouldn’t have closed the doors around you.
Huh? I.. I..
Yes, you closed them, yourself.. The music was always here, you muted it… The fresh air isn’t my gift, its your birthright.. The light isn’t mine, its your own.. You denied all that.. to yourself..
Please dont riducule me.. I became miserable, but before that I had a sound mind.. Who in their senses would do that to themselves?
Everyone does. You are a little to the extreme..
No! You don’t know anything of this! The pain, the suffering, the torture, its incredible.. Why would anyone do that to themselves?! How could anyone do that to themselves?!
Don’t get so worked up. Its human tendency to find a justification for every failure. They tend to find reasons for being sad, instead of finding reasons for being happy. They are amazingly intelligent, intelligent enough to fool themselves into a selfimposed misery.
But I was at the very bottom.. the darkness was abysmal.. the pain was unbearable.. and I couldn’t do anything..!
Yes, thats what helped you win over everything.
What? Being at the abyss?
Yes, at the very bottom, all you can do is rise. After forgetting everything, all you can do is remember. In the pitfall of failure, when you cant fall any more, when your reasons are finally over, and justifications aren’t needed, you rise above everything, and win!
A baby is always happy, coz all he can do is grow, learn, be better.. and like that baby, you are now reborn..
From the bottom of my heart, I thank you, Masashi Kishimoto-san, for giving me Gaara and Naruto, and with all the gratitude that I can muster, I thank Toshio Masuda, for composing Wind..